My Crazy, Beautiful Life

To start with a brutally honest secret, I never wanted to be a mom. Until I met my husband, I never had any desire to have a child. Even when I decided that I'd like to be a mom, I never had a desire to be a stay-at-home mom. I believe part of that has come from needing to feel like my child and I would survive if something happened to my husband. Another part of it comes from a need to identify myself as more than a wife and mom. Please know that my most prized titles are "Matt's wife" and "Anabeth's mom". Those are my two biggest accomplishments in my life that money can't buy. I can sincerely say that if everything were to disappear today, and I still had the two of them with me, I would still feel like everything would be ok. Though I choose to still work, and my husband says I need to work, it doesn't give back the piece of my heart that leaves me every single day when I either drop Anabeth off at school or leave to go to work. I never cou

Tomorrow will be our 10th Valentine's Day together, so I wanted to devote a blog post to the man that has been by my side. Many people have no idea just how amazing he is. Matt is the kind of guy that is happy to be in the background, but will voice his opinion when he has a strong one. He has never done anything for the purpose of someone noticing or giving him a compliment. Matt has one of the biggest hearts of anyone I know. In October of 2004, we began dating. Soon after, I moved to Florida to be closer to my mom since she had a lot of health problems and was looking at having a double lung transplant. Matt soon began visiting on a regular basis and spoiled me from the onset of our relationship. Anytime he was going to visit, I'd get a delivery of flowers at work and since the beginning of our relationship, I've received flowers on every Valentine's day, birthday, and anniversary. We were engaged in May of 2005 and married in May of 2006. In February of 2007,